So Long 2013....

So long 2013... There's a lot of words to describe you. It was full of accomplishments and failures. It was full of happiness and let downs. It was full of new friends and old friends leaving. 

In Feburary 2013 my amazing man spoiled me on Valentine's Day! 

In March I went to my first blate with alabama girls. :). 

Me and JBK went on a vacation(s) with my family this year. :). 

I went to my first formal for Delta Chi. 

Me and JBK both graduated 

My freshman roommate got married to her high school sweetheart 

I got to nanny 2 sweet kids over the summer and now the cutest kid now. 

   

Anna Joy ( my cousin) and Lucy ( girl I nanny) 

Sam ( cousin) and D ( boy I nannyed) 

Claire the little girl I nanny now. 

I also started workout/ get healthy.  One of the best things I have ever done. I don't think I could have survived my vacation to Orlando if I hadn't. 

And now a few pics from Orlando. :) :) 

Overall we did great on steps/ miles done. 

I am so ready for 2014 to start. My word for 2014 is change. 

Remember the new blog launched 1/1/2014!! 

Here's the link if you want to start to look at it!! 

WWW.fat2fabkaitlyn.blogspot.com

2 Posts In One Day..

So I saw this on Heather's blog so I decided to do it. :). 

I can't wait for 2014 to start. I really feel like this next year is one for the books.

I still haven't packed for Orlando and we leave tomorrow for a week.

I'm so ready to go to Disney because I haven't been since I was 16.

I've went through a lot in 2013. I graduated from college. My boyfriend graduated from his Masters. I moved home in Aug. My boyfriend got his first teaching job. We went through/going our first real hard  separation. I got a nanny job and started to workout. 

I'm starting a new blog/address on Jan, 1. I can't wait for y'all to see it! 

Music is my outlet. I love dancing/worshiping in my room. 

I love the show Best Ink. It makes me want a tattoo. Just a small one. :) 

I can't wait for the trip for next Christmas. Hawaii!!! :) :) :) 

I want to go back Washington D.C. 

I will probably read 3 or 4 books on this Orlando trip. 

I am watching Buffy right now. Old school 90s. 

I really miss playing softball. I just really miss going to the cages to hit. 

I've become more girly in my 20s. 

I love the color of finger and toenail color right now. :) 

It is silver sparkly color. 

I also love hummus. Espically this kind called Wild Garden. It is so good.

I also love Go Picnic meals. :). 

My Motivation/Inspiration

I've been asked lately what is my motivation!? Why did it take this long to get it. 

Why now when I was 23 almost 24!?  Why now when I was at my heaviest I ever been!? 

Why not when I was first started gaining weight at 11/12!? 

Why not when I was freshman in high school!? 

Why not when I was in the 100s my freshman year in college!? 

Why not when I was poinsetta debutante!?  3 years ago. 

Why now you ask!? 

Why the heck not!??? 

Sure when I started I was the heaviest I ever been!

My motivation this time is for me. Only me. It is not for my mom, dad, sisters, JBK. 

I want to show myself that I CAN do this. That I CAN make myself change. That I have strength to do it. 

I workout at least 3x a week plus Sat if I can. I hate when I miss. I love when I'm sore because it shows me I had a great workout. Plus I'm about to start doing 5Ks and P90x3. 

Yes I'm crazy. 

I am ready to finally commit full throttle. 

I think why I'm finally getting this because I'm putting my own money into it. Besides the 2 months my parents paid for my birthday present and 1 month for Christmas. 

But I'm so ready to do this for me!! And I can't wait to see the results and what I will look like a year from now!! 

2014 The Year of Health and Getting Fit!! :). 

Thank you so so much for the constant support and constantencouragement!! :).  

I love y'all more then you know!! :). 

Kaitlyn 

New Blog/Reasons

Only few people know this. I have been struggling with writing my blog lately. Hence the long absences. I know I want to keep blogging. 

There's a lot of reasons why I want to do this. 

1. I started the blog as a way to get over my ex. And I have. I have deleted everything but I still tied to him some how. I still have posts about him on this blog.

2. I still have nightmares with him in it and I feel like if I give up this blog it will go away. So bad juju. Yes I said juju. 

3. My life is changing right now. I'm on a fitness/healthy living journey. I'm on a long distance journey with JBK. I'm on a spiritual journey. And so much more.  

So with a lot of prayer and a lot of getting advice I'm going to start a whole new blog in general. 

I'm getting Hubby Jack to do my design I'm so excited about it!! :) 

So it's coming in Jan. 1, 2014. 

I will be giving y'all the URL soon so you can follow it. 

I can't wait to show y'all everything I have in store!! 

Love Y'all,  

Kaitlyn 

5K and Weight Update

So most of y'all know I been on this heathy train for almost a year now. 

However I really started in August when I got home.  I was the heaviest I had ever been. I was 249. I promised myself I would never allow get that big. But I did. So I started to eat clean and eventually working out. 

I now have been eating good for 4 months. And working out for 3 months.

I have done a mud run with obstacles. 

I weighed in for the month for Nov. And I lost 6 lbs!! :). 

I don't know about my inches yet. 

So now I have lost 21 lbs!! I'm so close to 10% of my body weight!! 

I went from a 22-24 to 18-20. I can also fit in XL Tshirts.

I am also doing this for me too. I feel amazing. I have so much energy. 

If you would have told me if I would feel this good I would not believe you. 

And now next week I'm starting to train for my first 5K. 

I maybe even do this half in 2015. Eeek. 

I am going to Disney/Universial later in the month. So yeah for walking!! :) 

I can't wait to see what 2014 has in store!!!! I hope to have lost another 29 before my birthday ( Oct. 6) I know I can do it!! 

Thanks again for supporting me!! :) 

Thankful Thursday I mean Friday

Wow I haven't blogged since last Friday. This week has just been crazy busy with Claire. 

I'm so thankful for... 

My parents. I know I don't talk about them often on here. My parents will be married for 29 years tomorrow. :). They are also leaving us 3 girls tomorrow for the beach and we will join them Tuesday thru Friday!! :) 

This is an old picture but I love them so much. They have given me an my sisters the best life possible. They do so much for us. 

I'm thankful for my sweet JBK. We had an amazing talk last night about a few bumps and he listened. :). And I also got an unexpected text this morning. So ready to see him next weekend. 

Sweet Erin. Today is her birthday! She is one of my inspirations! :). I hope to visit her in California one day. 

Pumpkin chocolate chip cookies need I say more!?? :). 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

My Break Through

So y'all know I had a horrible month last month. It was full of excuses. I just wasn't do I what I should be doing. I was cheating a lot and just not really caring. 

I was making a routine of everything. I was stuck in a rut. Even though I was working out 3x to 4x a week. 

I was going through the motions in my whole life. I was doing it in my relationship with JBK, my weight loss, my food, everything. 

I had a HUGE break through last night and today during my workout. If you read my thankful Thursday you can read about the treadmill. Well Brad told everyone about it this morning and I had to do it again this morning. That's what I have to do that now at the end of each workout. 

So now I'm starting a new with everything!! :). I can't wait for this new adventure!! :). 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Thankful Thursday Week 2

This week has been full of blessings. :) 

1. My lovely blog friends/followers. Y'all in the previous post were so supportive. It made my week so much. 

2. Tonight I worked out with Brad. I haven't worked out with him awhile. He pushed me so much. At the end of the workout we did stations. I have a hate/love relationship with the treadmill. So I wanted to do it last. So you power the treadmill yourself so I pushed myself like I never have done before. So I got done with my first round which goes for 30 seconds  and brad was so proud of me. So he made everyone look at me while I did my second/last round. He made me feel so good and made me realize a lot of things. That will be the post for tomorrow. 

3. Unexpected phone call from JBK.  :). 

4. Lunch with two of my best friends. 

5. My small group. Those girls are the best. I am  being mentored instead of being the mentor. I love it. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Warrior Dash Recap

First off I have on and off deleted this post since the Monday after Warrior Dash. 

Words can't describe all I went through that. Pictures can't do it either. However I  going to do my best. 

When I woke up I  was so nervous.  I woke up early because I had to meet my team/ people I work out with at 7:30. Nobody in my house awake. 

So I went to Starbucks to get protien. I had a spinach feta wrap with egg whites. And had to indulge with a nonfat gingerbread latte. Since I was still not awake. 

I rode with a few people I workout with on Sat. They are close to my age. 

Once I got there I was so nervous. JBK was supposed to meet me there, but he didn't arrive until I was about to start so I didn't see him until I got done. My stomach was in knots. 

It was 3.2 miles and 13 obstacles. It was also hilly and in the woods in some areas. 

At first our group was going to stay together but that went out the window. I was nervous that no one was going to stay with me. I am the most overweight at the bunch that went. 

However my friend Matt stayed back with me. He was the most encouraging about it. He was like let's run to this. You can do it. 

And man those obstacles were hardcore. I did some of them. Some of them I didn't because my heights fear and my shoes didn't have good traction.  (downside to my cheap shoes). So I cheared on Matt a lot. 

My goal is do more next year and to do do more 5ks. I think I'm going to start in January. Then eventually do a 10k first then eventually a half then maybe a full. Eeek. Never thought I would be saying that or writing. 

Here's a few pics. :). 

Me and Matt

JBK has a few more on his phone so I should be uploading some more later. 

Thankful Thursday..

This year has been full of blessings and thankfulness. I don't know where to begin. 

I'm thankful for my God. Without him this year would be not as great as it has been. 

I am thankful for my health. I have not gotten sick a lot this year. Thank you Lord. 

I am so thankful for this healthy journey I'm on. 

I am thankful for my family. We are so much closer now then we were a year ago. 

Long Distance/Goals

Me and JBK have been long distance for a year and 9 days. It has up moments and down moments. 

I commend my friends that have long distance marriages, relationships. 

I learn from them, but I still struggle. 

I hate to say right now it is a down moment. 

He's better at it then I am. 

I  like talking everyday if we can, I like hearing his voice to encourage me, I like laughing before bed, I love moments before bed hearing good night my princess I love you.  It helps me sleep better. 

Not hearing from him the past 3 nights and almost 4 days hurts. 

I know it will makes us stronger, but it is so hard. 

Dating a first year middle school teacher is hard because you have extra stuff after school, grading, etc. 

So right now I'm making some goals to help ( hopefully). 

1. Journal. I have missed writing out my thoughts where nobody can read. ( No offense to y'all) 

2. Doing a devotional. I haven't been reading my bible like I should. I only have been picking it up on Tuesday at bible study. Which I shouldn't do. So starting tomorrow I'm getting up earlier to do it. Even though I started today. 

3. Pray. I have been letting my bitterness and jealous behavior get the best out of me. My prayer life has not been as it should be. So I will be praying everyday and every hour I'm awake to let God get rid of this behavior and more. 

4.  Plan exciting dates when he comes to stay with me and my family. I have actually a good one for Friday or Saturday. But really we can do it anytime. I can't say on here because he reads this.. Haha. 

5. Anythingelse!? If anyone has any advice that would be great. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

So My Oct. Goals.... Now for Nov. Goals

So October ended 4 days ago. I can't believe it is over. However my October goals sucked. It has been an up and down month. A lot of birthdays, some cheating on my diet, some emotional eating, etc. 

I didn't make it to the 220s.

I didn't drink just water. 

I didn't track. 

I did lose my 5% of my body weight. 

I also been struggling with a few things in my personal life that took a toll on my eating. I know what I have to do. I am starting to change what I have to do it is going to be hard, but worth it. I really don't want to talk about it just yet. 

So now for November goals. 

Get into those 220s. I would really love to be in 225. Which would be almost 10% of my body weight. 

One plate for Thanksgiving. No getting seconds. 

Just water!! NO SOFT DRINKS!!! 

Track everything!! 

Keep to my diet. 

I know I can do this! It will be hard, but I know I can!! :) 

So...

So I just got done with Warrior Dash 2013!!! 

One thing off my list of 25 things to do before I'm 25!! :). 

I am so sore right now. I can barely even type this message. 

I will definitely tell y'all about it tomorrow! 

I will leave you with this picture though!! 

Tommorow

So tomorrow is the big day!! 

 

 

Warrior Dash 2013 is finally here!! 

 

I am so nervous. I am getting scared about what if I cant do a certain obstacle. One good thing is a lot of my people I workout with on Saturdays are going to be there. We are also doing it all together so that will help. 

We are also given a chip for our shoes to record everything. So if you want to follow what I am doing/cheer me on follow me on twitter. 

Katiemac007  is my twitter handle.

I will also have JBK there supporting me. :) 

So tomorrow you will be seeing a recap hopefully. :)

Wish me luck!! 

Love, 

Hey Y'all

Hey Y'all. 

It's been awhile I know. I needed a break to think about this space and where it is going. I want to be more intent in what I blog. I want to write more about my faith, my journey more in my weight loss, my struggles, my mountain peaks, and so much more. 

So in November I am going to blog everyday. It maybe something short, something long, or somewhere in between. 

If there's really anything you want to know or want me to blog about something I will.  

Thanks again for all the support y'all have given me. It means so much to me. 

Love y'all. 

Kaitlyn 

Ps On Sunday me and JBK celebrated a year. Wow!! Time goes by so fast. 

So here's a picture!! :) 

Literary Junkies

I haven't linked up with these girls in quite sometime. I am actually doing Meg from Semi Charmed Life Autunum Book Challenge. I just finished 2 books actually.

Ps I'm on my phone so I will link up the button. :)    

This month's link-up questions:

1) What are you currently reading? Tell us a bit about it! 

I just finished Go Ask Alice (again) and Letting Ana Go. 

Both are "anonymous" diaries. Alice is about a young girl who gets addicted to drugs and Ana is about a girl who has an eating disorder. Both are told through journal entries. 

2) What are your five most recent book purchases?

1. letting Ana go

2. Where the heart is 

3 11/22/63 

3) Have you ever named/nicknamed anything (person, pet or thing) after a character? Who and why?

Well my car's name is Blanche. Haha. 

She doesn't act like the character from Streetcar Named Desire 

4) If you could live in one book, all of its characters and in the town, which would it be?

Probably in England durning Pride and Prejudice. I just love Mr. Darcy and I have been told I act like Elizabeth sometimes. I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. 

5) Can you think of a book you read that taught you something concrete that you've never forgotten? Tell us about it.

I can't really think of anything. I'm not a big self help book person. 

These are the books I'm also reading for the book challenge I stated earlier. You can reread 3 books. 

5: Read a book that does not have "the," "a" or "an" in the title. 

Letting Ana Go

10: Read a book that has been featured in Oprah's Book Club. This list includes all the books up until 2010. (Submitted by SCSBC13 winner Erin. 

Where The Heart Is 

10: Read a book that takes place in the state where you currently live. If you do not live in the U.S., read a book that takes place in the country where you live. (Submitted by SCSBC13 winner Megan.)

The Wedding Dress 

15: Read an epistolary novel, which is a book written in letters, emails, diary entries or other documents. See this Goodreads list if you need an idea, but make sure it's actually an epistolary novel first! Goodreads lists aren't verified, so non-epistolary books could have snuck their way on there.

(Go Ask Alice) ( reread)

15: Read a book first published in 2013.

the moon and more 

15: Read a book with something spooky in the title. (Submitted by SCSBC13 winner Bev.)

Dollhouse Murders 

20: Read a book with "air," "water," "earth" or "fire" in the title. (Submitted by SCSBC13 winner Gypsi.)

The Earth, My Butt, And other big round things ( reread)

20: Read a book on which a television series has been based (e.g. Orange is the New Black, Gossip Girl, Pretty Little Liars, Friday Night Lights, etc.).

Pretty Little Liars book 1 

25: Read a fiction book that has someone’s first and last name in the title (e.g. The Story of Edgar Sawtelle, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, Bridget Jones's Diary, etc.).

megan meade's guide to the mcgowan boys

30: Read two books by the same author. They can be in the same series, but do not have to be. Co-authors do not count (i.e. the author must be the sole author of each book). 

Haven't picked out anything 

35: Read a fiction and nonfiction book about the same topic. (Example: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close and The Woman Who Wasn't There are both about 9/11. I'm planning on doing a whole post with a list of ideas soon, if you care to submit any!)

11/22/63 and haven't picked out 

John F Kennedy's assassination 

Weigh In Wednesday I mean Thursdsy... Haha

Hey y'all. :). So last week I was crazy busy due to the birthday and nannying until 7. So I forgot to post how much I lost last week which was 1.2!!!  Ahh so closs to 12 lbs. just 0.8 lbs. 

So this week I was really nervous to get on the scale just because my birthday weekend I ate a lot. And really bad too. However I am drinking only water so maybe that will help. And I have drinking a lot of it. I also couldn't go to my usual weigh in hence I went today. So with out further or do... 

  I LOST 3 LBS!!!!!!!!!! 

Ummm... What!? Excuse me you got to be kidding. Like really. So now I have lost 14.2 lbs altogether. And I almost out of the 230s. I almost cried. 

I also held a plank for 20 seconds yesterday. Never thought I could do that. 

I am so proud of myself and have y'all to thank too. If it wasn't for your support I don't think I could do it. :) 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

25 things before 25

So I finished writing my list 25 things to do before I'm 25. I can't wait to get started on it. :) Some of them obviously are a working in progress. :). Thank you all for the birthday wishes. I will leave you pictures from my bday dinner with JBK we went to a fancy restaurant with my parents. It is where you can see all of downtown Birmingham. 

 1. Run/walk a mile under 15 min 

2. Do a 5k 

3. Lose 50 lbs or more 

4. Blog everyday for a month (and really do if and not give up)

5. Visit someone on this list: Tamara, Katie, Kate, Tasha, Nicole  Erin and anyonelse. 

6. Visit Sandra and meet her sweet baby girl Ryleigh 

7. Do Warrior Dash in Nov

8. Fly first class

9. Pay for plane ride by myself 

10. Go to influence Confrence 

11. Read 25 books 

12. 25 acts of kindness 

13. Take the MAT

14. Get info graduate school 

15. Just trim my hair 

16.  Buy a bike 

17. Buy a really nice dress

18. Buy a really nice pair of jeans

19. Learn how to make sushi 

20. Make at least 4 healthy things  on my healthy food pintrest board a month. :) one breakfast, one lunch, one dinner, and one dessert 

21. Buy a two piece 

22. Buy Michael Korrs bag

23. Go a month without fast food

24. Drink water only for a month 

25. Plan an amazing date for me and JBK 

I Don't Know About You I'm Not Feeling 24

Today is my 24th birthday.  do I feel like I'm 24!??

Ummm... No 

Right now I'm in the process of writing 25 things to do before I'm 25 

1. Run/walk a mile under 15 min 

2. Do a 5k 

3. Lose 50 lbs or more 

4. Blog everyday for a month (and really do if and not give up)

5. Visit Tamara, Katie, Kate, Tasha, Nicole  Erin and anyonelse. 

6. Visit Sandra and meet her sweet baby girl Ryleigh 

7. Do Warrior Dash in Nov

Those are the only ones I have written down now. I will be adding more later because I am so tired. 

This birthday weekend has been one for the books. :). 

Come back tomorrow to find out what went on birthday weekend!! :) 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

October Goals

Hey Everyone!! Can y'all believe it is October 1!! What when did that happen!! 

This week is also birthday week!!!  My birthday is Sunday I will be 24! 

So fitness goals this month. 

I am on board with Jess from Operation Skinny Jeans and a bunch more ladies by only drinking water this month. 

I also am joining Erin from Shesabigstar

I also want be in the 220s by the end of this month. I also want to have lost 5% of my body weight. 

I also need to start to track what I eat. I have fallen off that wagon. 

I also want to start walking or something  on my days that I'm not working out. 

I am so proud of this journey.

 I started WW August 6th so almost 2 months. 

I also started my workout journey August 28!! :).  

Day 1

Day 1  

I am going to start from the beginning of The Bible. 

All women are descended from the first woman and she is the mother to us all. 

Her name is Eve. Her name means life-giver. 

Eve was born from Adam's rib as a companion for him. She lived in the garden of Eden. 

One day she ate the fruit that she was forbidden to eat along with Adam as well.  Thus now sin came in the picture. 

They had no idea that sin would cause this much damage. Sin looks so appealing and appetizing however the final product will always be death. 

No amount of blaming who made who eat that piece of forbidden fruit could change what would happen to them

or the generations after them. 

They had to leave the beautiful garden of Eden where they have lived and known. 

Eve and all women were also marked with childbirth pains. ( Thanks a lot Eve) haha. 

What I have learned from Eve. I want to be a life-giver. I can't wait for that day when The Lord if is part of his plan for my life to give birth to kids either myself, foster, adopt. 

That is one characteristic I hope to have one day. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

31 Days

Let me first introduce myself again since there maybe new readers to my lovely blog. Haha. 

Hi I'm Kaitlyn. I have many nicknames Katie Mac, Kait, KK, etc.  I'm 23 about to be 24 in 6 days. Oh goodness.

 I started to blog to get out my anger, my thoughts, etc. 

Now it is a completely different. Haha. I write about love, my weight loss journey,  my struggles, etc.  However I have been thinking about this blog and sometimes I just have those days I don't want to blog anymore. 

However God has shown me these past few days why I have this space. I have it to encourage people, have them do the same for me, and so much more.

 So this blog is about to go under a transformation. It is going to be better then ever.  So get ready. 

The first change is I'm about to start a journey of 31 days. I will be writing about 

I have not written about my faith in so long. It is long overdue. God has been really pushing me write about it, but just like Moses I gave excuses. That I wasn't good enough for this, that I couldn't commit 31 days to this, and so much more. 

So are you ready to join me on this journey!? I sure am!! 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Ps I will still be writing about other things as well on different blog posts. :).  

Weigh In Wed

So I'm back on the Weigh In Wed band wagon!! :). 

So I'm going to reintroduce myself. 

Hi I'm Kaitlyn. I'm 23 about 24 in 11 days. I have been overweight since I was 11 to 12.  I have finally wanted to do this weight loss journey for me. I want to be healthy, hot smokin bod, etc. haha. 

At the beigining of Aug. I went back to Weight Watchers. :). I started at 246 lbs which was the 2nd heaviest I have ever been. 

I also started to see a trainer almost a month ago. It will be a month the 28th. I go 3 times a week sometimes 4 if I can. 

I have now lost 10 lbs altogether!! :) I have 2 more lbs until 5%. 

Thanks for reading!!

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Sept Goals

Hey Everyone!! :).  I'm showing how my Sept goals came out. 

September Life Goals

Lose at least 10 pounds

I lost 10 lbs!!! :) I'm so happy!! :) I'm 2 lbs away from 5 %!

Drink 120 or more oz of water everyday 

I need to drink more water. I haven't been drinking as much as I should. 

10 burpees everyday minus Sunday. Send to Brad how long it took me. 

I only missed this once. I'm getting better at those stinkin burpees. 

Don't cheat on my 21 Day Diet

I only cheated once. 

Also write down everything I eat and give it to Brad 

I did. :). 

Workout 4x a week with Brad 

I have not missed a workout. :) I also will be working for a month on the 28th. :) wow!! :) 

Sign up for Warrior Dash in November. 

Did it. I'm so so nervous about it. 

September Love Goals

1. Pray for JBK when I get up and pray for him over the phone at night. 

I have not been doing a lot of my love goals to be honest. Expect for number 4. 

This month has been a hard one for us. We fought a few times. 

We have only seen each two times. I am going to see him Sat and he's going to spend the night at my parent's house. 

We finally talked about our conflicts so we know how to resolve it. So yeah!! 

Also Kalyn's post last week about 5 tips of long distance relationship helped out a bunch! I so needed that post thank you Kalyn!! :) 

2. Ask JBK if he has any joys or concerns every night. 

3. Start Grace for The Good Girl. 

I haven't started to read it yet. I'm reading somethingelse. 

4. Plan exciting anniversary stuff for JBK

I can't wait to give my presents to him!! I can't tell y'all since he reads this blog!! Haha. 

Can't wait to show y'all next months goals!! :). 

Love,

Kaitlyn 

The Struggle

Since I got home in beginning of August I hate to admit this but I have been struggling. 

It is hard being back at home when I have been "away" for 5 years. A lot has changed since then. 

I lost my home church to put it nicely an egocentric pastor. So now my family is going to a different church. There is not a young adult group there. So now I'm looking for a women's small group to keep me accountable. 

I also have a few friends here too. I was never the girl with the tons of friends in school. I always had a few select friends. Most of them are younger then me so they are now at college. My few friends here either working or always busy.

I also have been struggling with long distance with JBK. It is so hard. It was so much easier when we were at school. Now with both of us having jobs it is hard. I have been very selfish lately. I just want him to all myself when I know I can't. It is also hard going a few days without talking to him. He has a lot on his plate right now. I just have to keep reminding myself that I will see him less then 2 weeks and my birthday is the week after that. Then our 1 year 3 weeks after that.  

I also struggle because this is the first  time I committed to workout out this long. It will be almost a month in 10 days.    

I'm so glad I am keeping up with it though. :) Even when I cry and want to throw up and sometimes I do. I know I doing it for myself. I also can see my hard work paying off. I am so proud of myself as well. I also love y'all's continued support. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn  

Weigh In Thursday

So I have updates about my weight since 2 weeks ago. Last week I was up .6 lbs. I was not a happy camper. I also knew because I weighed at night instead of morning. So I weighed yesterday and I lost 3.1 lbs!!! :) yeah!!! 

Now I'm so close to my first goal 1.7 away from 5% and I lost my 10 lbs mark!! So proud of myself!! 

I am still working out 4x a week. I am also getting better at burpees. I also trying to decide what I'm going to do on my off days not working out. I'm not as sore as I was the first day.

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Where Were You When??

12 years ago our nation was attacked on US soil. It seems like yesterday. I was only 11 at the time. Just a baby. First year of middle school. Only been in middle school for a month. 6th grade. 

I woke up early morning. I had Middle school Breakfast Club where you eat at McDonalds with kids your age and have a short devotional. 

My first class was science class. It was so boring. 

My second class was PE that's when I found out. A guy came running to my line telling us a plane had the hit the  twin towers. I didn't know what the twin towers were or where it was located. Then one of the girls in my pe class started to cry because it was her birthday. We then heard it was New York and another girl started to cry because her dad was on a plane to NYC. 

One of the PE coaches brought the tv in. We also saw the second plane hit the second tower. Left and right were crying. People started to get checked out. 

The next five periods my teachers didn't turn the tv on. The older grades did, but the 6th grade teachers wanted to make it normal as possible. 

When I got home all I could do was cling to my mom as we watched the news. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Hey Everyone!! :).

So I haven't blogged since last week. It has been crazy here in my life. From waking up at 5:45 to working out every MWF at 6:15 to working from 7-7. I'm dead meat when I get home. I also been feeling like I need to redo my blog and start all over. 

So I'm about to start blogging on a regular basis. :). :). 

So I'm going to reintroduce myself for the time being. :). 

Hi my name is Kaitlyn. I am 23 about 24 in October which I can't believe I am. I graduated in May 2013 from Huntingdon College with a degree in history. I love history however God has called me to be a librarian either in the teen department in a public library or middle school or high school. Right now I'm a nanny for adorable 2 year old little girl.  I have an amazing family. 2 parents who have been married almost 29 years and 2 sisters one is 21 and one is almost 16.  I am in the process of losing over 100 lbs. I am doing it for me and my health.I know there's a skinny bikini model  (hahaha) in this body. I have an amazing boyfriend of almost 1 year named JBK. :). He's everything plus more. I have some amazing in real life and blog friends. They are some of  my  biggest supports. I am a Christ follower. God really changed my life these past 4 almost 5 years.  I have lived in Alabama my whole life.  I am an avid reader. I love books so much. I love to laugh and hug. I care more about people then I do myself however I am working on caring about me now.  I love to travel and wish I could do more because a lot of my blog friends live out of state. I also love tv shows. :)  that's about it. If you want to know more just ask. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn, Kait, KK, Katie Mac 

September Goals!

Hey guys. So Claire the little girl I'm a nanny for deleted my last post. She loves  my phone.  A lot of my blog girlfriends have been making goal posts so I wanted to start too. 

September Life Goals

Lose at least 10 pounds 

Drink 120 or more oz of water everyday 

10 burpees everyday minus Sunday. Send to Brad how long it took me. 

Don't cheat on my 21 Day Diet

Also write down everything I eat and give it to Brad 

Workout 4x a week with Brad 

Sign up for Warrior Dash in November. 

September Love Goals

1. Pray for JBK when I get up and pray for him over the phone at night. 

2. Ask JBK if he has any joys or concerns every night. 

3. Start Grace for The Good Girl

4. Plan exciting anniversary stuff for JBK

Weigh In Tuesday/ 10 Months

So again sorry for only one post again. Ahh!! I need a job like now!! So frustrating!! 

However I weighed in today and it is.....

Loss of 1.4!!! So pumped because this past weekend was some hard crap man. 

A wedding shower which I didn't eat anything, my mom's birthday we had California Pizza Kitchen which is one of the worst places you can go to while on WW, but all 5 of split stuff, and a beautiful wedding. 

The wedding dress I wore actually feels better when I wore it over a month ago. So yeah!! 

I am also about it start working out with a trainer at least 3x to maybe 4x a week!! I start bright early. :). 

I also celebrated 10 months with my man today!! I can't believe it has been that long. Seems like yesterday I told y'all about him.  I also get to see him this long weekend!! Haven't seen him in 2 weeks!! Yeah for JBK hugs and kisses!! 

Thanks again for all the support it helps out so so much!!! 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Me and my sisters at the wedding!

Weigh In Tuesday.

Well friends it has been another week. Sorry again for not posting I have my hands full of job applications and interviews. I also have appointments since I am now back at home as well. So eye doctor on Thursday. :) I love my eye doctor because he is like my second dad and haven't seen him in forever. Love my Big Daddy (that's what we call him.)

Now onto the weight... 

I lost another 2.2lbs!!!!! :) :) I also now out of 240s!!!! :). Never Ever going back to that dreaded number again!! 

I am also 5.6 lbs away from 5% of my body weight gone. :). 

I am also 3.6 lbs away from 10 lbs being off my body as well!! :). 

This week is going to be hard, but I'm saving my extra 49 points for my mommy's bday on Friday and a good friend's wedding on Sat. :). 

I also been looking up healthy recipes and cooking a lot. 

I am also trying to eat clean so not a lot of process foods. 

Trying to get off carbonated drinks. I have one at least every few days. Which is better then everyday how I was this summer. ( I will also be buying some spark from Tamera soon.) 

Drinking at least half my body weight in water. 

I also eating not a lot of frozen meals. Only going to eat one a week instead of a lot. 

About to start workout again. 

I also got a cute new haircut. :) 

So there's a ton of new things on the horizon and I am loving it. :) 

Thank you all for the support you give me. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Get Help

I have been on and off writing this post for sometime. I have been really feeling to write this now more then ever. 

This is going to be a very serious post just to warn y'all. 

2012 and 2006-08 are years that will always stick out in my mind. Those 3 years are the years I almost killed myself. 

Hence the word almost. 

Those years I was the lowest of lows. 2012 was when I thought the love of my life broke my heart. However he wasn't. And now I do have the best boyfriend JBK. 

Then in 2006-08 were the years where I had rumors and lies spread about me every time I entered school. 

I am so glad I didn't. I have amazing friends now that support and love me for who I am, I have a better relationship with my family then I have in years, I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me, and so much more.  I am also on a path to make a more healthier me as well. I can't wait to wake up in the morning. I also have an amazing God who loves me unconditionally. 

Sure I still have my days, but I know it will all be ok. 

If you or someone you know every feels like that you can't go on please get help. 

Suicide  Prevention Hotline

tel:18002738255

Weigh In Tuesday!

So update on the life. Applied for the library position yesterday. Now applying for administrative assistant jobs. One is at kid's theater. I would so love that one. :) I hope to here back from something soon.

Working out wise haven't really yet. I am probably going to start walking around the neighborhood again. :) 

But overall I lost again this week!!! 

4.2 lbs!!! :) almost out of the 240s!! :) 

I also got a sample of Spark from my lovely Tamera  or if you want to order some advocare products her website is this www.thesparkrunner.com . She's the best. :) I haven't tried it yet I will tonight or tomorrow. I may also do the advocare 24 day challenge with her! :)  She has been one of my biggest support system why does she have to live in the big state of TX. haha.

I am making dinner tonight so come back tomorrow for the yummy healthy recipe!! :) 

Hey Y'all Long Time No Talk

Hey y'all.  It's been awhile. Sorry about that. I just got finished with my summer job Friday. Now off to interview stage!! 

I had one today for after school help. I will know by the end of the week. I am also applying for a part time library job. The application is due Monday. I really want that one because that is the field I will be going into. 

I am also working on my weight again. My wake up call was a few weeks ago when I weighed. I was 249. Ugh. 

So last night I went back to Weight Watchers. I missed those ladies so much. I am so glad I am back doing. 

Good news is I was back down 3 lbs when I weighed last night. 

I also want to get back to working out. I really want to go back to my trainer. I want someone other then a family member keep me accountable. She also knows how to get to me.  If I do that I will have to pay for it though. 

I am trying to convince my parents if I pay for these sessions and show them I am really serious then will they pay for the next ones.  Here's to hoping it works out!

 

Me and JBK are doing good. We went a wedding a few weeks for my freshman roommate. It was great. :). I haven't seen him since then, but we hope to see each other the weekend before he starts teaching!! :) 

He is now a 8th grade science teacher and science coordinator for 5th and 6th grade!! I could not be more happy for him. He is going to be almost 2 hours away which isn't that bad. 

My sister SEC turned 21 Sunday. So she had her first legal drink. It was a pineapple martini. I tried it wasn't that great to me, but whatever. 

So that's it for the life update!! :) 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Happy Birthday!!

27 years ago a guy came into the world. That guy is my guy JBK!! Words can't describe how much this guy means to me. He is the peanut butter to me being jelly. The cheese to my macaroni. And so much more. 

He is my best friend. He is everything I have wanted in a guy. He makes me laugh every day. He loves me for me. And so much more. 

There's not a day that goes by that I'm so thankful for God giving him to me. 

I have also been dating him now for almost 9 months. :) it has been the best 9 months. 

So JBK I love you so much!! Thank you so much for being my knight in shinning armor!! :) 

Happy Birthday!!! :)

Happy Birthday to one of my best friends Lauren Elizabeth Adam!!!! :). We have know each other almost 3 years and she is one of my best friends. :). She is the reason I have this blog in the first place. Haha. She has designed both my layouts I have had on this blog. :) contact her if you want something different. 

So here's my bday message to her. 

Biffle, 

Words can't describe the friendship I have with you. You are everything a girlfriend is supposed to be. You are supportive, kick my butt when necessary,  accountability partner, my other "little" sister, my confidant, and so much more. 

We have been through it all sister. We have been through 2 boyfriends, a breakup, my struggles, your struggles, etc.  

I remember when I told you about JBK for the first time. You were so nervous for me, but in the end it was great. Also when you met him the first time. That was so much fun. 

I don't know how I would have made it through HC the last few years without you. :) 

I am so happy to be your sister. I love how I could be my huge dork around you. I love how you deal with me being your "crazy" Moderate friend. And I vice versa with you being a "crazy" Republican. ;). 

These past few months I know have been hard but God has made you so much stronger. I can see a difference in you. You get better and stronger every day. 

Remember you are the Ruth to me being Naomi. You are going to homeschool my kids. Just kidding. 

You are one who is going to do my engagement pictures whenever God plans that for me. You are the one who is going to take my kids photos. You are going to "Aunt Lauren"

You are going to do amazing whatever God had you do. Either being a social worker or a counselor for girls who have Eating Disorders because you can show them your life story how you got better.  I can't wait to see what it is in store for our lives. 

I miss you so so much!! 

Love you. 

Kaitlyn. :) 

Forgiveness

Sorry I haven't posted awhile. I am getting a very much needed vaca. And I have my sweet extended family here. 

Coffee and Convos

"What does forgiveness look like? At what point do you realize it's time to forgive and move on if someone takes advantage of you?"

Forgiveness is one of the hardest things us Christians are called to do. And it is one I struggle with. 

Finally forgiving someone, or even sometimes yourself is one of the hardest things. 

Right now I will say I'm struggling with forgiving myself. Forgiving myself for all the bad things I have done before met JBK. What I did with MAG and what he made me do. And so much more. 

So lately I have been so scared and anxious what is to come. I just burst into tears talking to JBK. About my future, his future, our future. Everything. It all links back to not forgiving myself.  I'm so scared something will happen again. When I know God has it all under control. 

So I talked about it with JBK last night and he agreed with me. 

So after I hung up. I looked in the mirror and said I forgive you to myself. I swear it felt like a huge weight was gone. 

I also 2 weeks ago saw MAG for the first time since we broke up March 2012. I made small talk of course. It felt very freeing. Am I glad I did it!? Yes I am. Are we ever going to be friends again!? Nope. But it felt again another weight of that journey is done. 

There comes a point where you need to forgive and move on. In this moment it took a year sometimes it takes awhile. But you need to forgive. 

:) thanks for listening!! :)