Friday, March 30, 2012

Roses and Thorns

So today at accountability group we talked about the "roses" and "thorns" in our lives. Let me tell you last week was thorny as they come.

1. Wednesday day morning I find out when one of my friends on my Discovery Weekend almost died the night before.
2. Me and M are no longer together. It hurts so much. Right now I'm in the shock phase still and it really hit me Sunday on my way back from Auburn.
3. My heart is breaking right now because news back at home. A teacher is in jail for inappropriate behavior with a student. He was band director from 6th to 8th grade. He would help out with band camp in high school. So I have known him for 11 years. His family needs prayer.
4. I have a sinus infection. :(

Holy Week this week.
3 weeks and a few days until the end of school.

Friday, March 9, 2012

2 Days

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:11-13 ESV)

These verses have been on my heart these past almost 2 weeks. I read it every day as a reminder. God knows everything.

The next 2 days I will be on and off praying for God's guidance. I will also be in prayer for Matthew and for myself.

I am so anxious, excited, and emotional about Sunday. It determines a future. Please be in prayer for both of us if you read this blog.

I love this guy. I don't know where I would be if I have not had him these past almost 5 months. And if Lord willing more then that and if not it will be ok eventually.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

I Am Slowly Getting Better Every Day

Every day I'm getting better some what. However I went home this weekend when I really should not have. It made it worse.

I was only going home for three main reasons.

1. Reunion for the awesome retreat u went on. However due to the " bad weather" that was postponed. :(. I needed it so badly. :(.
2. Hair cut. Finally my hair has no more perm. Well it has a little. I cut a lot of my hair I needed a change. A change I got. And I love it!!
3. Seeing my best guy friend. I see him because we go to church together. It is so great to have that because before we only got to see each other mate every three to four months. I think the longest was 6. He has been my rock through this week. I am so glad I have him!! :).
4. I had to add another reason. The dog. Oh how I miss Sadie when I'm away. I have decided I def. getting a dog when I move out on my own. They make everything better. :)

Added Bonus: I got to see my best girl friend from across the street and Amanda one of my bests from band. Totally needed both of those. :).

Right now I can't sleep. Go figure. At least one dream a night has M in it. Need it to be a main part or just in the background. Really come on!?

7 more days of this!! I can do this!!