It is hard being back at home when I have been "away" for 5 years. A lot has changed since then.
I lost my home church to put it nicely an egocentric pastor. So now my family is going to a different church. There is not a young adult group there. So now I'm looking for a women's small group to keep me accountable.
I also have a few friends here too. I was never the girl with the tons of friends in school. I always had a few select friends. Most of them are younger then me so they are now at college. My few friends here either working or always busy.
I also have been struggling with long distance with JBK. It is so hard. It was so much easier when we were at school. Now with both of us having jobs it is hard. I have been very selfish lately. I just want him to all myself when I know I can't. It is also hard going a few days without talking to him. He has a lot on his plate right now. I just have to keep reminding myself that I will see him less then 2 weeks and my birthday is the week after that. Then our 1 year 3 weeks after that.
I also struggle because this is the first time I committed to workout out this long. It will be almost a month in 10 days.
I'm so glad I am keeping up with it though. :) Even when I cry and want to throw up and sometimes I do. I know I doing it for myself. I also can see my hard work paying off. I am so proud of myself as well. I also love y'all's continued support.