A year ago I was not the same person I am today. I know I repeatedly say this on this blog but it is the honest truth. When I look back I cringe. I can't not help but look how I lost myself for those almost 6 months I was dating MAG. I was self absorbed to the extreme. I was only happy when he was or any kind of emotion for that matter. My friends became nothing to me. I still cant believe they are still my friends. My family and I were not on good terms. Don't even ask about my relationship with God.
Everything to second fiddle to MAG. He was a "God" in my eyes. My anxiety and depression woah baby.. It was bad. I was off my meds literally. I was also angry with myself, God, etc. because he had taken the "one good thing" I had. Which to me was MAG. Not knowing it was the worst thing for me at the time.
So that summer was about finding myself again. I still am because there are days where I feel like when I was back then. Not as bad but still. It is a daily process.
However 7 months and 2 weeks ago I started talking to a guy on match. He was nice. He was annoying because he asked a lot of questions. He was sweet. He didn't care i wasn't asking questions back. he wanted to know me. He was 26 and never had a girlfriend. At first I was scared about that. But after praying about it God reassured me it was ok.
2 weeks after that we skyped the first time. I was so nervous. But you know what he was just like he was on those messages. That's when we both knew we wanted to date. But before we could he had to ask my dad. Yes I am old fashioned. Haha. So we decided Oct. 27.
Well on Oct. 20 I decided to surprise him at his school at a football tailgate. Best idea ever! I was so scared about that to. Was he going to be the same guy I had been talking to for a month. Boy he was so much better then expected. He came up behind me and hugged me. That's when I knew I was falling for him. He says that's when he knew he loved me. I gave him his first kiss that day and it hasn't been the same since.
The next weekend he asked my dad. and I started dating the man of dreams. He was everything I dreamed of plus more. He is my best friend. He loves me for me and all my quirkiness . He loves my family as his own. He tells me he loves me everyday and how proud he is of me. He doesn't get sick of me saying I love you. He holds my hand everywhere we go. Encouraging. Only he is going to get this next sentence. Makes some great eggs. ;). Considerate and caring. Has a relationship with God. Plus so much more.
I am so thankful for the past 6 months JBK!! :) I can't wait for the next 6 when celebrate our 1 year!! I love you so much my knight in shinning armor and my Superman.
Love your princess.