Happy Birthday!!

27 years ago a guy came into the world. That guy is my guy JBK!! Words can't describe how much this guy means to me. He is the peanut butter to me being jelly. The cheese to my macaroni. And so much more. 

He is my best friend. He is everything I have wanted in a guy. He makes me laugh every day. He loves me for me. And so much more. 

There's not a day that goes by that I'm so thankful for God giving him to me. 

I have also been dating him now for almost 9 months. :) it has been the best 9 months. 

So JBK I love you so much!! Thank you so much for being my knight in shinning armor!! :) 

Happy Birthday!!! :)

Happy Birthday to one of my best friends Lauren Elizabeth Adam!!!! :). We have know each other almost 3 years and she is one of my best friends. :). She is the reason I have this blog in the first place. Haha. She has designed both my layouts I have had on this blog. :) contact her if you want something different. 

So here's my bday message to her. 

Biffle, 

Words can't describe the friendship I have with you. You are everything a girlfriend is supposed to be. You are supportive, kick my butt when necessary,  accountability partner, my other "little" sister, my confidant, and so much more. 

We have been through it all sister. We have been through 2 boyfriends, a breakup, my struggles, your struggles, etc.  

I remember when I told you about JBK for the first time. You were so nervous for me, but in the end it was great. Also when you met him the first time. That was so much fun. 

I don't know how I would have made it through HC the last few years without you. :) 

I am so happy to be your sister. I love how I could be my huge dork around you. I love how you deal with me being your "crazy" Moderate friend. And I vice versa with you being a "crazy" Republican. ;). 

These past few months I know have been hard but God has made you so much stronger. I can see a difference in you. You get better and stronger every day. 

Remember you are the Ruth to me being Naomi. You are going to homeschool my kids. Just kidding. 

You are one who is going to do my engagement pictures whenever God plans that for me. You are the one who is going to take my kids photos. You are going to "Aunt Lauren"

You are going to do amazing whatever God had you do. Either being a social worker or a counselor for girls who have Eating Disorders because you can show them your life story how you got better.  I can't wait to see what it is in store for our lives. 

I miss you so so much!! 

Love you. 

Kaitlyn. :) 

Forgiveness

Sorry I haven't posted awhile. I am getting a very much needed vaca. And I have my sweet extended family here. 

Coffee and Convos

"What does forgiveness look like? At what point do you realize it's time to forgive and move on if someone takes advantage of you?"

Forgiveness is one of the hardest things us Christians are called to do. And it is one I struggle with. 

Finally forgiving someone, or even sometimes yourself is one of the hardest things. 

Right now I will say I'm struggling with forgiving myself. Forgiving myself for all the bad things I have done before met JBK. What I did with MAG and what he made me do. And so much more. 

So lately I have been so scared and anxious what is to come. I just burst into tears talking to JBK. About my future, his future, our future. Everything. It all links back to not forgiving myself.  I'm so scared something will happen again. When I know God has it all under control. 

So I talked about it with JBK last night and he agreed with me. 

So after I hung up. I looked in the mirror and said I forgive you to myself. I swear it felt like a huge weight was gone. 

I also 2 weeks ago saw MAG for the first time since we broke up March 2012. I made small talk of course. It felt very freeing. Am I glad I did it!? Yes I am. Are we ever going to be friends again!? Nope. But it felt again another weight of that journey is done. 

There comes a point where you need to forgive and move on. In this moment it took a year sometimes it takes awhile. But you need to forgive. 

:) thanks for listening!! :)