Saturday, June 22, 2013

Scars

Just to warn you. This post has been very emotional to write.  I have been writing and deleting it since Thursday. So here we go. 

So all of you know I struggle with my weight. I have been for almost 11 years. 

I have tried everything. I am the poster child for yo-yo dieting. I have written posts about my weight loss journey. However since April I have been slacking. I have put it off. 

However on Wednesday my eyes were finally open and I am finally going on this journey for myself. 

The wake up call was when I looked in the mirror after my shower. I never truly look in the mirror after a shower. However I did that morning. I truly believed God poked me that morning to look. 

So I looked I was embarrassed what I saw. I saw a person I didn't recognize anymore. I saw a person who wasn't happy about herself. I saw a person who didn't think she would ever get this big. I saw my stretch marks aka scars caused by emotional eating.  I saw a person who is now fed up about this way. 

So starting on Monday  my journey starts. I'm ordering my Body Bugg. I am going to start making my food instead of buying frozen. So getting some healthy cookbooks from the used bookstore or from the bookstore. Making a list on Sundays for groceries. And so much more. 

I want to write so much are about this, but I will just post more about it later. :) 

Love y'all. 

8 comments:

  1. Good luck with starting fresh :) I look forward to following along and seeing how your journey goes!

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  2. Good Luck!! You can do it!!!! <3

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  3. First of all, you are beautiful in God's eyes, and in your friends eyes. Don't ever forget that! We all struggle with this issue, but you have a find a way to be happy with yourself. Don't get yourself worked up... and remember, little steps turn into big steps. You've got this!!! Love you!

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  4. Good for you, girl! If you need any help, you let me know! You can absolutely do this, and I'm proud of you for taking the first steps to do so. <3

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  5. I know all too well that feeling you described. But I also now what it feels like to overcome that feeling and become the person you feel in your heart you are supposed to be. It isn't always an easy journey, but it is so, so worth it. Best of luck to you, it sounds like you're already off to a great start though! :)

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  6. I've avoided the mirror for a long time without even realizing it too - even now that I'm in a healthier place I still just look past it. Mirrors are the debil.

    You're going to do great and you have a wonderful support system here ready to cheer you on in your accomplishments (there will be plenty!) and who will be here to tell you to buck up when you need it.

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  7. Congratulations!! You are a strong women for making this first decision. Let me know if you need anything.
    Cindy (registered dietitian)
    CindyJadeRD@gmail.com

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  8. Good for you girl! Can't wait to hear all about your progress and your journey! I'll be here, cheering you on! :-) You got this!

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